12 weeks have passed since Stephen’s death (referenced in early March). Here are a few brief things to share for those that may check in from time to time on his wonderful blog.
For those friends, family and neighbors who have been so supportive, I thank you from every fiber of my being. You have helped me make healthy grieving possible and have brought hope, laughter and purpose back into my life after intense shock and desperation.
I’ve been learning oodles about myself, others, loss, anger, letting go and everything else that grieving has to offer. Grief has felt relentless and grinding at times and I’m grateful to all of my past and present mentors, teachers and therapists that have helped me learn over and over to have all of my feelings without becoming those feelings. Learning the dance between allowing intense emotional pain and also allowing distractions for relief has been most healing for me.
I credit all of the support and teaching I’ve received, the vigorous endorphin producing activities of a walking/biking/hiking routine and eating food regularly (especially with others) as helping me get through this tremendous loss of Stephen with flying colors.
There is so much I miss about him including the regular movie and book reviews he shared verbally and in writing. I will keep his blog up and running in tribute to him. I may add tidbits from time to time of what seems to be helping me and others as we all continue to reinvent our lives without Stephen physically in it. He gave a lot of himself to those he cared about and my life is so much better for having been with him for many years.
For those friends, family and neighbors who have been so supportive, I thank you from every fiber of my being. You have helped me make healthy grieving possible and have brought hope, laughter and purpose back into my life after intense shock and desperation.
I’ve been learning oodles about myself, others, loss, anger, letting go and everything else that grieving has to offer. Grief has felt relentless and grinding at times and I’m grateful to all of my past and present mentors, teachers and therapists that have helped me learn over and over to have all of my feelings without becoming those feelings. Learning the dance between allowing intense emotional pain and also allowing distractions for relief has been most healing for me.
I credit all of the support and teaching I’ve received, the vigorous endorphin producing activities of a walking/biking/hiking routine and eating food regularly (especially with others) as helping me get through this tremendous loss of Stephen with flying colors.
There is so much I miss about him including the regular movie and book reviews he shared verbally and in writing. I will keep his blog up and running in tribute to him. I may add tidbits from time to time of what seems to be helping me and others as we all continue to reinvent our lives without Stephen physically in it. He gave a lot of himself to those he cared about and my life is so much better for having been with him for many years.
I’m going to walk in the upcoming Seattle “Out of the Darkness” overnight fundraising event on June 21-22 for the organization called AFSP or American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. The 20 mile walk with fellow survivors and advocates will start at dusk and go through the night until dawn. Thanks to the generous support of family and friends I have raised the required $1000 for participation. I think this will be a great way for me to further honor Stephen and hang out with his long time friend Elizabeth (Betsy) who will be walking with me. I wish everyone well and thanks again. Love, Drew
posted by Stephen @ 8:33 AM
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